Bitter and salty
8:15am:
Woke up this morning in such a bitchy mood (started yesterday). My morning pages were all filled with bitter and salty words, too :P…I don’t know what it is. I feel like I’m falling back to where I was before I started all this self-discovery.
Then this morning, while reading the transcripts from Heidi’s audio today, in her AYTR class, I got this: “…don't worry about where we're going. We're going good places. You just focus on the moment. Focus on making sure you are having a YTR [year to remember]. Now that may not mean that every day is a day you want to remember. You can have good days and you can have bad days. But evaluate that. Evaluate what's good and what's bad. If you're not happy and it's not going good, then make a change.”
Thanks again for the timely messaging, God/the Universe/the Infinite! But could I also possibly ask for some assistance with determining what exactly to change? I’m struggling a little with that part. I’ve come to all these grand realizations/conclusions, but I’m not sure how to translate it all into any tangible change.
6:15pm update:
Response from God/the Universe/the Infinite via the Creative Everyday blog . In it, the author is talking about a piece of art she just finished [check out the art -- it’s really nice]:
“This is the piece I mentioned last week. I needed to end it and so I finished it up today and here it is. The idea for it came quite randomly. I had started to doodle and sketch in a sketchbook, just swirling lines. And then a figure appeared and her long hair made me think of Rapunzel. I think she may have popped into my head because my hair has gotten so long. So, I was drawing her and the window she would gaze out of, but I didn't put her rescuer in the scene. Then it occurred to me that I didn't want her to have a rescuer, I wanted to re-write this tale, so that she would rescue herself. It also became a play on the idea of looking outside yourself (out the window, waiting for your hero) for the answers, when they reside within you. So, yes, there is this beautiful landscape outside her window, but within her there is an equally beautiful landscape from which to draw upon, and it's right there for her whenever she needs it. There's nothing to search for, there's nothing to wait for. The answers lie within.”
Thoughts that pop into my head as I’m reading the above: interesting that she finishes this art and posts about it today; I don’t even know who this woman is, I followed the links from some other blog, bookmarked her and have been randomly checking back ever since; “Rapunzel” was part of my nickname in college because I had long straight hair that almost touched my knees…what, if anything, do I make of this?
